No Time For Air

Hi friends... I apologize for the lack of blogging. This week has been a little on the rocky side of things. The class of art in elementary is a lot of fun, we've been dancing, acting, painting, singing, and overall acting like kids, and the teacher is so great, but I just don't "get" art like I get science, math, reading, etc. I might be able to make some sense of it in my brain, but I can't turn around and explain it to someone else... to learning how to teach it has been hard. Maybe I am making it harder than it needs to be because I will be explaining it to third graders and not to other adults... but I am still struggling with it. It's not a bad thing to struggle with something... I always end up learning something from it... but right now I am so exhausted that I feel much more like giving up than like stepping up to the challenge. It's also a bummer that this class is only a week long. A) because it is way more fun that some of the other classes, and B) because that means it's super-duper intense.

Add to the intensity the fact that I found out yesterday (Wednesday) afternoon that I need to be at my school before 1pm tomorrow (Friday) because my future students and their parents will be meeting in my future classroom for an ice cream social. Put this on the list of things-that-would-have-been-nice-to-know-ahead-of-time. If I had more energy I would be totally freaking out. As it is I am stressing about it with as much energy as I can muster (equal to about a blink right now). This was not the light at the end of my rough-week-tunnel that I was expecting.

In addition to this wonderful mix of life-elements, throw in a dash (or a few tons) of panic that the second chapter of the masters paper is due a week from tomorrow. Some professors are trying to get that changed for us, but since they don't know yet -- its just this lovely additional layer of stress which is on top of the huge art project that is due this coming Monday. Which, if you may recall, is also the first day of school.

If you are wondering at this point how I have the time or energy to be typing this... well its pretty much because this is all the crap racing around and around through my brain, so why not let it repeat again on the keyboard :)

Oh.. and just as that lovely little extra bonus gift thrown in... the company I use to work for is closing the gallery that I worked at in Sun Valley. Yes, its true that it doesn't really affect my life right now... but since I put 3 years into it, and since one of my good friends just lost her job because of the situation... I still care. And it sucks that I don't even have the time to feel sad.

No I'm not sorry I chose this path... I still feel like its the right one to be on, and I know that it will be so worth it at some point in the future... but right now I am standing on that mountain realizing that the last two months have been quite the climb, and when I look ahead it sure is still a looooooong way to the top.

But don't take the tone of this particular post as a sign of things to come... I am sure there will be brighter days coming soon. Besides, there are only 134 days until Christmas break :)